Tuesday, June 9, 2026 | June 09, 2026 | 0 comments
eek hi anons in gen make me abit nervous in general n i can take things to heart but i d get wht you mean by this i didn't rly take it as mean,, ♡ i do like to explain myself tho um i dunno i sort of jst like to tlk to tlk n i ws sorta tlkin abt this stuff on my priv abit too yesterday so funny timin.. c:
cw/tw mentions of my abuse n stuff for anyone who wld not wnna see tht,, also big big mention everythin i say is def not a good thing.. i am not tryin to promote any of this at all i am jst tryin to tlk n give context i rly do hate to see this sorta stuff promoted :c
i do think i am lucky in many ways.. alot of ppl at least online (i do not go out mch so i am unsure abt in person if im liked tht mch but ppl havent been as mean to me as they used to b..) n i truly am incredibly grateful for everyone who's kind to me ♡ im sry if it comes off contrary to tht cos i rly do try to make it knwn tht im always rly moved by kindness towards me.. i cry often happy tears at tht sorta stuff.. as for my romantic situation it cn be a bit tough at times but i am happy okay? n i do not like to rly go into detail on stuff n it feels rly vulnerable n ithnk tht is also sorta why i get viewed as fake smtimes; i like to vent subtly n downplay issues cos bein so upfront is rly scarie !! bt also bein so vague i dnt blame anyone at all for seein it like tht..
ithnk ive always been a rly open girl abt how mch comfort i find in sadness or sickness unfortunately.. i wld call it insecurity mst likely.. i feel unlucky bcos of my traumas n how badly they've impacted my thought processes to this day.. how do i say i without sayin it ummh.. well mayb being vague wld not b good now . i dealt with a lot of physical abuse frm ppl rly rly early in my childhood n sch ppl i ws also incredibly attached to,, i developed a rly bad complex abt bein behaved = bein a good "punchin bag" n offerin myself up to tht stuff jst for attention n to feel useful.. the only times ppl paid any mind to me ws whn i ws hurt or upset, n ppl often wnted to wipe a smile off my face.. in a sense <|3 it made me seek out lots of negative things n ppl n theres alot more tht has happened in my life tht i rly dnt wnna get into cos it is extensive n sorta irrelevant n also jst saddenin um,, also bein in positive situations makes me incredibly anxious cos i feel i dnt deserve it, or karma will make me pay for feelin so happie.. obviously all of this is terrible n its a terrible way to think n i wldnt wish it on anyone else but it feels so stuck w me,, i do wnt help n to get bttr but im afraid of it.. ive spoken to lotsa professionals n been medicated alot n nothin truly rly felt like it helped :c cute things r also a massive way of copin for me so turnin my negative experiences into smthin tht aligns with my aesthetic comforts kindof rly helps me bcos evn tho they feel "bttr" i dnt feel guilty as mch since they're still there? if tht makes sense ?
ummh.. truly i dunno if you're gnna check or if you care bt i like to explain whn i cn.. i find myself more tolerable w context n i also jst sorta think tha wrld wld b a mch bttr place if everyone ws more open n honest n also if everyone ws more compassionate n nuanced ♡ so i try to contribute..
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name : tori/vivi/victoria ♡
born on : 10/26 (october 26th)
country : usa ♡
language : eng onlie...
religion : unsure.. i'd like to think there is somethin ♡
wishes : i wish everyone ws more genuine n compassionate n nicer n more willin to help others n ummmh a donut i rly wnt a donut..
hobby : art, fashion, writin, readin, pharmacology, psychology.. umm stuff in tht realm ♡
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♥ sweets
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♥ craftin
♥ sweet people
♥ winter
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✖ loud noise
✖ the outdoors
✖ crowds..
abt this blog
est 2/27/26.. wowow recent for blogger right.. altho i've been active online bloggin since abtt 2023.. i wnted a more private place n a diary ♡ my wnts change alot so smtimes i like to b open n smtimes i like to b hidden.. here is my littl hidin spot ♡
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Tuesday, June 9, 2026 | June 09, 2026 | 0comments
eek hi anons in gen make me abit nervous in general n i can take things to heart but i d get wht you mean by this i didn't rly take it as mean,, ♡ i do like to explain myself tho um i dunno i sort of jst like to tlk to tlk n i ws sorta tlkin abt this stuff on my priv abit too yesterday so funny timin.. c:
cw/tw mentions of my abuse n stuff for anyone who wld not wnna see tht,, also big big mention everythin i say is def not a good thing.. i am not tryin to promote any of this at all i am jst tryin to tlk n give context i rly do hate to see this sorta stuff promoted :c
i do think i am lucky in many ways.. alot of ppl at least online (i do not go out mch so i am unsure abt in person if im liked tht mch but ppl havent been as mean to me as they used to b..) n i truly am incredibly grateful for everyone who's kind to me ♡ im sry if it comes off contrary to tht cos i rly do try to make it knwn tht im always rly moved by kindness towards me.. i cry often happy tears at tht sorta stuff.. as for my romantic situation it cn be a bit tough at times but i am happy okay? n i do not like to rly go into detail on stuff n it feels rly vulnerable n ithnk tht is also sorta why i get viewed as fake smtimes; i like to vent subtly n downplay issues cos bein so upfront is rly scarie !! bt also bein so vague i dnt blame anyone at all for seein it like tht..
ithnk ive always been a rly open girl abt how mch comfort i find in sadness or sickness unfortunately.. i wld call it insecurity mst likely.. i feel unlucky bcos of my traumas n how badly they've impacted my thought processes to this day.. how do i say i without sayin it ummh.. well mayb being vague wld not b good now . i dealt with a lot of physical abuse frm ppl rly rly early in my childhood n sch ppl i ws also incredibly attached to,, i developed a rly bad complex abt bein behaved = bein a good "punchin bag" n offerin myself up to tht stuff jst for attention n to feel useful.. the only times ppl paid any mind to me ws whn i ws hurt or upset, n ppl often wnted to wipe a smile off my face.. in a sense <|3 it made me seek out lots of negative things n ppl n theres alot more tht has happened in my life tht i rly dnt wnna get into cos it is extensive n sorta irrelevant n also jst saddenin um,, also bein in positive situations makes me incredibly anxious cos i feel i dnt deserve it, or karma will make me pay for feelin so happie.. obviously all of this is terrible n its a terrible way to think n i wldnt wish it on anyone else but it feels so stuck w me,, i do wnt help n to get bttr but im afraid of it.. ive spoken to lotsa professionals n been medicated alot n nothin truly rly felt like it helped :c cute things r also a massive way of copin for me so turnin my negative experiences into smthin tht aligns with my aesthetic comforts kindof rly helps me bcos evn tho they feel "bttr" i dnt feel guilty as mch since they're still there? if tht makes sense ?
ummh.. truly i dunno if you're gnna check or if you care bt i like to explain whn i cn.. i find myself more tolerable w context n i also jst sorta think tha wrld wld b a mch bttr place if everyone ws more open n honest n also if everyone ws more compassionate n nuanced ♡ so i try to contribute..
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