hmmh.. well.. im takin a go at this again,, tha good part is i finallie got a keyboard w an s key tht works so i dnt have to ctrl + c ctrl + v it all tha time anymore.. i srsly did it smch <|3 i developed a reflex.. im on a lotta meds right now too.. venlafaxine, xanax, n seroquel (quetiapine fumarate.. not true seroquel..) 

so ummh they make feel feel prettie disconnected. i hvent had mny thoughts at all.. which sucks n is why i hate meds :c bt whn im not takin smthin im a freakout mess w delusions.... i like anythin that makes me sleepy tho ♡ .. jst hate tht it makes me dumb.... 

i thought abt sylvia likens n bianca devins alot again.. i think of sylvia often cos whn i ws a littl girl i used to watch mny true crime documentaries tht i ry should not hav been,, bt id watch them on youtube alongside arg n creepypasta videos,, so for tha longest timei thought her case n others were made up n sme made up stuff ws real.. im a ditz <|3 but i had remembered hers vividly n reread everythin abt it as soon as i remembered her name.. its so awful :c truly.. 

i find mself attracted to tha terrible evn tho im squeamish n i still hav no idea why.. [1:36am] o woaw i cn rlie feel tht seroquel.. hhelpme.. um anyways yes cases.. now im thinkin tha "arg" video i watched tht i ws lookin for tht tlked abt girls walkin on tha side of tha road ws rly jst a thing on david parker ray.. will i evr knw ? i dunno.. i wnted to write alot more abt my bf n medicine bt im noddin off n my arm hurts..