sick girl's hospital

 dear diary i am stupid.. :c i am so afraid of change i feel sad at m past self.. i've thrown up too mch recently n i only hav smch pills left.. 

dear diary pls come to life n giv me a rly bad head injury so i go to th hospital where th nurses take care of me n it smells good like antiseptic n im too hurt to think.. 

dear diary i am rly freakin stupid n useless n every time i hav any kind of thought at all i feel like beverly marsh whn she got onto herself abt hopin her dad died except i cld nvr be her she is so cool n does lots of cool stuff like speak up for gerself smetimes and i am th worlds biggest loser